I deserve someone who can commit to me.
I deserve someone who can appreciate my loyalty.
I deserve someone who’ll give me the same extent of love I give out.
I deserve someone who won’t abandon me when things get hard.
I deserve someone who’ll always care for my feelings.
I deserve someone who doesn’t merely want to be with me, but is capable.
I deserve someone whose actions stay true to their words.
I deserve consistency.
Some women want to be house wives and some women want to be Harvard professors and some women want to be porn stars and some women want to be nuns and some women want to be surgeons and there is nothing wrong with anyone’s profession I am sick of people being rude to women about their professions oh my god
And I love you more than anything. You’re the one who gave me wings to fly when my whole life they’d been clipped too far. A song bird trapped in a cage, singing such a sad sad song. But you mended my wings, and you set me free. You taught me how to fly, how to see the good in life when all I’d ever noticed was the bad. But then, then we flew so high, and you ripped my wings from my body, watching me plummet back down to the earth. You led me up so high, just to watch me fall even farther than I had ever been. You see darling, you’re the one, the only one I ever wanted. The one who taught me that I too could be happy, life wasn’t always so gray and dreary, and then you showed me life can be dark as an abyss with no light at all.
Guess I don’t mean shit to you anymore. Fuck this night, need to try and sleep…
What the fuck are you talking about? You don’t mean shit to me? Ever since you left I’ve wished for a way to die that didn’t involve my parents cleaning my brain matter off of a ceiling or seeing my body in a morgue. I’ve always been sad, my entire life, somehow when you came along I was actually happy for once, for a year and a half of my miserable ass existence I was happy, I didn’t want to die. Now I want it more than ever. Fuck you, just because I don’t talk to you doesn’t mean I don’t care. I don’t talk to you because every time I do I want to die even more and god damn it I don’t want to hurt anyone. I want to make it through this.